Tuesday, January 08, 2013
See how happy we are? What happen to us now? We are falling apart. Only god know how much i love you.
Word
Thursday, January 03, 2013
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
why the fuck am i still trying. Move on and be strong ziela.
Never ones anyone shouted at me vulgarities as much as you do. You should be proud of yourself. Congrats.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
The day i give up everything 29 nov
Your family HATES me. WHY AM I STILL HERE BEING YOU GOD DAMN GIRLFRIEND?
Lose Control
Thursday, November 15, 2012
I'm here to express my feeling. November is not a month for us and being a year together is even harder. Never thought that he gave up in this early stage. I know been following my worse attitude this days. Or as he describe as my "ego" I know I'm hard to be with. But I just want someone to be with me at my worse. I dont know if there is that someone in this world would be? Never will anyone understands me. As I know right now. The only person that makes me happy is him and I cant afford to lose him. I wish Im strong like other girls do. By leaving and hang up without having the urge to call back or making things okay. I wish Im the type who can move on without any difficulties and I really wish that leaving is as easy as it says. I just want to settle down and stick with one. After Ive made a huge mistake last time. I learn that its not easy to stay strong and continue relationships after every fight. I dont want to lose anybody I love anymore. After all we have been through. But sometime I, myself dont understand me. Ive been used, fucked, played,hurt and lied to all this past things still a part of my phobia. How can I just leave them behind and just move on. Maybe someone I love has done this before. Maybe thats the reason why. I just one a someone that can make me happy, my parents happy and no, not because of $$$. Its just need a simple care, Love, Trust and Respect. No guy has never respect me as a girl. Everybody either beats me up or just fucked me up with vulgarities and make a shame of me, calling me a whore/slut. nah its okay. I just take it and pretend that Im okay with me eventho Im in deep hurt. Can you imagine a person you really love calls you that and you can stupidly still stay with me. Call me stupid but I stay because I love him so much that I let him hurt my feeling, myself. After he lie that he wants to meet his aunty but actually he went to meet his camp mates at Clarke Quay. I still stayed with him till now. I know if other girls are in my shoes they will simply fuck off and find someone better. But no. I stayed. I told myself Im prepare all the good and bad faith that gonna be entering this relationship. I'll be strong if I'm not.I told myself I wont give up eventho Im at the edge off giving up. I will stay strong just for us. Ive cut down my cigg for him. From 10 -8 sticks per day to 4-3 sticks. And that dont even appreciate him. Two things I will never quit/cut down. Clubbing and smoking. But for him. I already have. Even my past ex hates me going club I still went. But I dont know why with Syuqrie Im able to quit. Cause I love him more then my 2 years ex. I will not lie. He's better than Faiz. In every way. Even if he swear to me more than faiz do. I dont know if he's the right guy but I hope he is.Cause I dont bother to find and date back to square one. Ive never been happy with a guy before. If he let me go ones more. I dont know what to do. Im just sad really sad. I'm typing this while tears flowing down my cheeks. Shall end here.
Good night.
I miss how happy I am like in this picture.
Good night.
I miss how happy I am like in this picture.
hanging
Saturday, July 28, 2012
What is happening to you? Us? Me?
Our arguments are getting worse, You've scolded me vulgarity that no guy has ever say to me in my whole entire life. You know how much it hurts when the one you love the most hurts you with his own words. Yet you do it to me. Maybe you don't feel any regret cause all those regrets are covered with EGO. I admit I have ego as much as you do, But ive learned how to control it. Do you feel proud saying vulgarity to a girl?throwing your ego at me? Dont you feel guilty for making me cry all the time? Dont you? To be frank, Today was the worse fight I ever had with you, Today I know your true colors. Its awfully terrible, But what I can do? Nothing. Cause when I start to talk, You keep thinking that I always blame you in every situation we're in. So I better keep my mouth shut and just buried my feeling of hurt, sadness, depression in me. I put you first from everything, But you dont even appreciate a single shit of it. Even my FAMILY. People just dont notice your good deeds. They always will notice the bad ones. Cant blame you. Humans are like that.
You said that Ive never changed at all. Sometimes I thought to myself, To love someone is to accept for who they are, They no need to be change a single shit of them. But then reality confused me. You confuse me. and what can I do? Nothing. After all 9 months together, Ive been tolerating all the shits you've been through. Parents took your whole month pay, Friends FORGOTTEN you. Think back. Who was there for you? No one except this stupid girl who always stand strong just for you and in the end vulgarity, hurt, tears what she had in return. If one day I decided to leave and move on. Try finding a girl like me who brings to places you never even gone to. Trying her very best to make you smile every date. Gave you everything you need, Cooks for you spaghetti. Who stays with you through out thick and thin. Appreciate what you have now, Dont regret when its gone. I dont know why cant you notice yourself, Remember the syuqrie who stop me from crying when he hears me started to cry on the phone? Remember the syuqrie who turn down his ego after hearing me cry and immediately say sorry? You know I fucking hate the fact that people change. Everything was beautiful back then. But then Im the one who destroys it. I know I notice. But now, Ive change, I quit saying vulgarity. But now you started it. Can you see whats going on in our relationship? I just got nothing else to say. Maybe I'm not the one who's you looking for..
Our arguments are getting worse, You've scolded me vulgarity that no guy has ever say to me in my whole entire life. You know how much it hurts when the one you love the most hurts you with his own words. Yet you do it to me. Maybe you don't feel any regret cause all those regrets are covered with EGO. I admit I have ego as much as you do, But ive learned how to control it. Do you feel proud saying vulgarity to a girl?throwing your ego at me? Dont you feel guilty for making me cry all the time? Dont you? To be frank, Today was the worse fight I ever had with you, Today I know your true colors. Its awfully terrible, But what I can do? Nothing. Cause when I start to talk, You keep thinking that I always blame you in every situation we're in. So I better keep my mouth shut and just buried my feeling of hurt, sadness, depression in me. I put you first from everything, But you dont even appreciate a single shit of it. Even my FAMILY. People just dont notice your good deeds. They always will notice the bad ones. Cant blame you. Humans are like that.
You said that Ive never changed at all. Sometimes I thought to myself, To love someone is to accept for who they are, They no need to be change a single shit of them. But then reality confused me. You confuse me. and what can I do? Nothing. After all 9 months together, Ive been tolerating all the shits you've been through. Parents took your whole month pay, Friends FORGOTTEN you. Think back. Who was there for you? No one except this stupid girl who always stand strong just for you and in the end vulgarity, hurt, tears what she had in return. If one day I decided to leave and move on. Try finding a girl like me who brings to places you never even gone to. Trying her very best to make you smile every date. Gave you everything you need, Cooks for you spaghetti. Who stays with you through out thick and thin. Appreciate what you have now, Dont regret when its gone. I dont know why cant you notice yourself, Remember the syuqrie who stop me from crying when he hears me started to cry on the phone? Remember the syuqrie who turn down his ego after hearing me cry and immediately say sorry? You know I fucking hate the fact that people change. Everything was beautiful back then. But then Im the one who destroys it. I know I notice. But now, Ive change, I quit saying vulgarity. But now you started it. Can you see whats going on in our relationship? I just got nothing else to say. Maybe I'm not the one who's you looking for..
depression kills
Ive crying every night. Ive been having to much stress. Studies, Licenses, Grandpa in hospital, Relationships. When will everything gonna end? My studies has drop. Ive not been doing well in school, common test. Ftt is near another 6 more days and I cant even get anything in my head. Grandpa has admitted in the hospital on Thursday, 26 July 12. His blood is low. And he has internal bleeding. And lastly, Relationship. Things between me and boyf is not going well.. Been arguing. And I cant take it anymore. I want to leave but I love him to much to let him go. For the first time ever a guy scold me vulgarity ad much as he did today, Do you know how it feels when the one person who you really love hurt you so bad by their own words. Yes, thats what i feel right now. Maybe I deserve all this? Maybe What i did in the past comes back to me. its okay. Ill stay until I cant take it anymore. Slowly. I tell myself that I have to take one step at a time.
piggggggggggggggggggggy
Sunday, January 08, 2012
And awesome first start date of the year 2012 with boyfriend <3
Suppose to meet him at DG around 12 sharp but. I was late.
& I didn't cook for him his cheese tofu, I'm sorry baby.
I'll make it up to you and send you in front of your door step with love on one of the days this coming week okay.
First stop was Strictly pancakes, We broke both our Strictly pancakes virgin together yesterday!
yayy! I ordered The druggie and he order his Tiramisu. He told me that 3 pancakes might not be enough for him. HAHHAA. after he start eating it. He end up complaining that he's full. As for me I didnt manage ti finish half of my last pancake. too full and too muak. hahah.
but still i loveeeeee the chocolate pancakes. (Y)
After strictly pancakes, we when walk walk at Plaza Sing.
hahhaha! sorry k bby my english pecah here.
its 3.33am. You're sleeping like a pig and I'm here blogging this just for you.
After the walk walk, We went back to The cathay and plan to watch movie.
He choose to watch sherlock holmes and I just follow the flow.
And I ending up so engrossed with that movie. Minus the going toilet part for two times uh.
And I'm sorry baby, If I talk to much during the movie. HAHHAHA. <3
After movie, I was pretty sad that we didnt get to eat the 1 for 1 meal at Manhattan fish market promo cause its only vaild from 11am to 6pm. And our movie ended around 7+
But baby never fail to cheer me up and he still wants to go to manhattan and eat, But I suggest him Fish & co. And we when there, I ordered my swiss fish & chip and he ordered his new york fish & chip and with some ikan bilis look a like twin. fuck, i forget what the small fish call. :/
ohh ohh and one big jug of passion fruit ice blended for our drink. omg ending the date with an awesome dinner!
Overall I had a lot of fun today and today was one of the awesome meetup/date ever.
Thanks baby for spending a lot for me today :') I'll treat you back soon and I will stand by my surprise. Oh yes, Just to tell you that you're doing great at planing dates already. not like the first time I meet you. Plan-less. Congrats on the improving ! heheh I love you so much.
Cant wait to meet you next Saturday, hopefully I'll get my pay on the Tuesday so my turn to plan a one day date with you.
OHH YES. I wanted to tell you this, but you already K.O
But its okay, I shall type out here since you're gonna read it when your awake and I should be sleeping. You were right we should say good bye to my friend, cause she just tweet me, why I didnt tell her that we're going off. cause she want to tell the manager to give us discount -.-" WOAHHH I FREAKING SAD. but its okay, I told her im coming there again. FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY TREAT. HEHHEHEHEHE. more surprises to come in future! so stay as long as you can with me. ^________^
Hope you enjoy reading okay.
apology if my grammar, spelling and singlish in this post.
I'm reblogging and tahan my eyes just for you.
OHH PLUS MY BACK IS ACHING NOW :(
im off to bed before i type merepek here.
I love you soooooooooo much syuqrie piggy. xx
To be continue
Thursday, November 17, 2011
I almost gave up.
Right now, I'm hoping you will change.
I've been patience for this 1 month.
I guess if other girls were in my shoes right now, I don't know how things will go on. But I'm still here. Staying strong in our relationship. Forgiving the mistakes you have done. But hardly forget.
Right now, I'm hoping you will change.
I've been patience for this 1 month.
I guess if other girls were in my shoes right now, I don't know how things will go on. But I'm still here. Staying strong in our relationship. Forgiving the mistakes you have done. But hardly forget.
Confession. Lonely. Love.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am
I must not be worthy of this thing called love
We don't really contact that much, we don't really meet each other like all the happy couples.
When I'm out with my girlfriends or going home alone.
I tend to stare at happy couples inside the train/bus. Holding each other hands, forehead kisses, hugs. Sometimes seeing all this makes me sad. Although I have a wonderful boyfriend in my life. I can't spend so much time with him. Sooner or later, He's going for his national service and I know life's gonna be fucked up for me. I have to understand if he can't meet me when he start his ns. But I dont want things to change between us, Eventho right now I can see somethings started to change. I try to be okay with it. I just need you to equal you time with me and the other things in your life. Thats all I ever wanted from you.
I don't get to contact him every time when I need him.
And that is the most difficult part. We always contact by Whatsapp and facebook.
No night phone calls, No morning message, No goodnight message. But all that doesnt matter to me. I need to understand. And I understand his situation right now. I have no problem with this.
But sometimes, seeing my girlfriends texting or on the phone with their boyfriend in front of me really makes me feel empty.
But baby, Its okay.
As long as I'm yours. I will still be strong and fight this awful feeling.
I will still be with you as long as you want me to be.
Even when you're not by my side always, You're always be in my heart and my mind.
Sorry if I'm not being a perfect girlfriend, Sorry if I'm being so emotional over this. Or maybe everything. Sorry if this hurt you. But I really don't want you to leave me. & I know I wont leave you. You're the type of guy I always wanted. You're funny, sometimes crazy, loving, caring, fun to be with, loves shopping, loves food just like me and we even like/interested the same things sometimes. You always have this random facts about everything that I didnt know. I just love everything about you. I mean every single thing. And please baby, I love you the way you are.
I apologies if sometimes I overthink, overreact over something, Jealous over some of you friends and being like this every night.
Sorry if Im not being a perfect girlfriend of yours, But I will promise you one thing, I'll try my very best to love you right which other girls/ex's fail to do so.
I love you S.
`Your girlfriend.
love
Monday, November 14, 2011
I think I've meet my Mr. Right.
There's this guy name Syuqrie, With his charming self he wins my heart just like that.
He's a guy from my Secondary school. An Express student, one year older. So called my senior. The guy who carries a handbag to school. HAHAHAHAHHA! ok i die if he reading this.
He's WAS a one arrogant guy I must say in secondary school. No offense baby if you're reading this. LOL ! I mean like seriously, We in the same school like 3/4 years, we sometime passby each other on the hall way outside class but for once he didn't even say hi or just simply talk. And yes, I always saw him playing soccer in school. At that part of time I got no interest with him. Never thought will fall for him in future or something like this.AND THIS ONE PATHETIC PART which I just get to know that we were in the same batch when I was sec 4. And I did notice him as he always late for school, doing push ups. LOL. And he was slimmer that time. Zaman chicks all tengah aiming. hmmm hmmm. I think that was one of his reasons la for not being friendly with me. I know, When I was sec 4, I was one kental minah. I KNOW. Not only sec 4 la. THROUGH OUT MY SECONDARY LIFE. I chill chill low profile girl in school. So yeah ;)
Back to my story, Its all started with Formspring.
He send me by anon and first telling me that he has a sudden crush on me.
So I thought this is one of the prank that people always spam on formspring.
But actually it was not. I shall not explain more. Let the picture tell the story.
So precisely, The last question he send me, He forgotten to anon his self. HOW CUTE IT THAT.
HAHAHA! But when ever I switch on my laptop, I'll check my facebook first rather checking anything else. So I log in my facebook and saw a message. When I click on it and read it I was lost and after that I check my Formspring then I get it.
After chatting and knowing each other. He suddenly.
Even tho things happen so soon. I never regret accepting me as my boyfriend.
He's loving.
He's caring.
He's clever plus weird sometimes.
And he's all I ever wanted in my life.
And we're so comfortable around each other.
The best thing about him, he never fails to make me happy.
And the things he say really touched me.
Just to let you know okay baby.
I wont leave you. I promise.
We go through life together thick and thin.
No matter how hard the situation in our relationship is
I will still be with you. But I need to make an effort too.
I really hope you mean your words. I know you're different.
Like you always say. I wont break you, If you wont break me.
I love you, Syuqrie <3
Hi.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
been MIA-ing so here we go.
Saturday, September 03, 2011
The thing is I can't get over 2 person in one time.
The almost 2 year relationship and other one the most fun to be relationship.
I know its hard to move on with all the memories we had in the almost 2 years relationship.
But whats the use of regretting and crying over the past when you know things can be back like last time. You already moved on and I'm still here.
& the most fun to be relationship.
Our relationship is different then others. We ain't no couples like serious.
We always scold each other bad words, pay fights with each other. We always have this small bets with each other. But we still love each other.
We never get bored with each other. We always have somethings to do. Even the little privacy times we make things exciting by betting with one another. We were so happy having each other in our life. But something have to destroy everything apart. I can't stop it, Neither do him. We had no choice to leave each other and now we're back to strangers. It sucks. I miss him.
Its been months I last saw him.
Guy F is going to serve his NS soon. Sign on CD. alhamdulliah.
I pray for him for his happy life and find his dream girl soon. Amin.
as for guy A, I guess still searching for his dream girl or just busy with his mixing.
same for him, I pray a bright future too. Amin.
As for me, I'm serving my karma. Standing strong but inside I'm dying for all this shit.
Finding the guy of my dream but end up with guys taking advantage of me. On repeat.
I hate to say this but I'm getting tired of guys. I don't want to declare myself as a bisexual.
No, Not now. But soon. Oh well, I just wait for Allah to lead me where he wants me to go then.
Signing out, Zielaa.
A confession.
Dear ex boyfriend.
I've learned ever single shit of mistake after I left you. I realize your the guy I wished for on a wishing star I saw that night (I'm not gonna name that place and which day)
I wished for a guy who can take good care of me, scarifies whatever shit for me & finally Allah has given you to me. But I simply waste my wish on that someone. I really regret it. Now I relies how much you mean to me. I know its too late. "Nasi dah jadi bubur" so call? But if I have one wish that sure will be granted. I will wish for you to come back like used to be. Back in my arms. When I saw couples pictures, especially when they when to Universal Studio, I suddenly think of you and cry. I still remember we promised each other to go USS together & take lots of pictures but "tak kesampaian" I know you already moved on, I am still here serving my karma, Suffering, Hurting. I know I deserve it. Lastly, I miss ibu, I miss your dad, your sister and everyone in your family. If I were to confess to you all this or simply show this to you. Will you accept me back?
Sincerely, Ziela.
Thursday, June 09, 2011
I dont believe that you can ever "get over" someone. You just slowly start to realize that things are never going to be the same & stop hoping for something thats never gonna happen. No matter what, you're still gonna wonder if they think about you from time to time, even if you dont want them anymore.
I wish I can send this similar text to HIM.
say hello to goodbye
Monday, June 06, 2011
But everything fucking coming back to me.
No, I dont regret a single thing.
But its just I miss the memories, everything.
I know you dont feel the same. I'm just different.
When I love someone, I really love him with all my heart even the relationship doesn't last that long as we wanted. Guys now are like come and go. There's some numbers of guys wanting to know me more and get serious, But I just scared to be hurt again and again. Lets just say I'm not ready to be in a relationship right now.
someday, I'm gonna throw every single thing.
Someday when I'm strong enough.
I realize it now =\
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Aku da malas nak cakap ape-ape.
Pasal bile aku cakap buang mase kan.
So its better to keep my mouth shut and act as if you did nothing wrong.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
<3
Yes, I miss falling asleep beside you :(
Sunday, May 15, 2011
You know what, I really miss this :(
This ~
Saturday, May 14, 2011
I don't want us to fade a part from each other.
Because I love you too much to let you go.
I will keep my promise and your wish for not leaving you.
I will try my best to be strong even though it will hurt me forever.
Remember I did this just for you.
I hope you notice how much I really love you.
I bet you won't find a girl loves you like the way I do.
❤
Friday, May 13, 2011
Hi, I just miss you &
Your kisses &
The happiness between us &
You always messing up my hair &
You always cover your face when ever I on the camera flash, Cause you really hate it &
You kissing every part of my face &
Your "step kesian" face &
But the thing I really miss the most is spending every second with you.
:(
❤
I feeling we're fading :(
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Yeah, I'm hurt.
Fucked up, Ever single reason to be.
I just miss a guy that use to send me long text messages, random I love you's or I miss you.
A guy who always dream of me, A guy who I really love the most and who always complain that he miss me so much, A guy who never miss to webcam with me every night before I sleep.
Now that guy has changed, I cant bare to face the new him.
Even he has change, I know my love for him wont change at all.
As I notice, I scarifies a lot for him. I mean a lot. I dont know if he notice it or not.
I know its hurt to see his girlfriend hurt herself.
Panadol, scissors and ect.
I dont know whats wrong with me. I feel so fucked up every time.
I know I have to change myself for not losing him.
I feel really bad after all those shit I've done.
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
3rd May (:
Like finally , MENSES YOU CAME LIKE FINALLY
I've been waiting for near 1 months. (:
<3
Not a perfect girlfriend.
<3
boyfriend for you
This ! Boyfriend, This is the reason why.
I love you (:
just so you know.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
Frankly my life is hard, full of shit. I fell worthless and useless.
& you got no one to talk too right now and only thing you could do is just fake a smile and being happy in front of others. Its hard to be strong of every single shit in life. Its tiring seeing yourself being hurt again and again. And the feeling you just wanna end your life and make the people relies that you are not invisible and by the time they regret everything they done.. Sometime its just that is what I wish for just die and make people relies all their shit and come back alive. Problem after problem, and I relies my 2011 just sucks. From the first starting of the fucking year till now I'm freaking suffering. I'm strong in the day, But behide this fake smile and during at night lock inside my room and just cry myself. I dont know how long I can stand this.
Monday, April 25, 2011
People lie, things change. Boyfriends cheat, best friends ditch. & there's always going to be those people who would kill to see you fall.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Menses, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?
Thursday, April 07, 2011
i miss you.
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I dont know why I feel this way.
Everything just hurt me.
I need to stop before somebody get hurt.
Anybody.
with love
Monday, April 04, 2011
This guy here, Azhar Berry (:
His is my Best friend, My Close friend, My brother, My boyfriend, My love, My baby, My twin.
He understand every shit out of me.
We so call have something similar inside us.
I dont really know what, but many people say we do.
Maybe the attitude? the lazyness? hmmm. I dont know?
It has been 1 month plus we been together, But we have known each other since Dec 2009.
Zaman Singapore Idol. LOL~~ which we dont really talk that much at that part of time.
Except for msn-ing and webcam-ing with each other.
As the years past, There's this one part we became close and from there the feeling grow.
Whatever it is, the past 1 month we were together, we really had a hard time. Not with each other but with the people around us. But I'm really glad we both are strong and always stay by each other side. <3 & thats one of the wish of my 11:11 (:
He is the sweetest, awesome boyfriend and i love him.
❤ ❤ ❤
I'm not lost, I'm not gone.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Oh god, Please show me the right path of my life.
I can't stand all this.
I don't know what is right and what is wrong.
I had enough of all the mistakes I've done in life.
Just for ones, I want something to at least goes prefect with no sadness in the end.
Just that.
Moving on was no my choice.
Choosing which is better is not what I want.
Hating, I don't want to feel in the story.
Losing my mind is what I'm going through right now.
Ending my life is what I wish to do.
I've lost half of my everything already. I dont want to lost anything anymore.
I can't bare to face the hurt and hate in this life.
Shit happens in life.
Fucking face it because you cant to anything to change a single shit of it.
Just accept the faith and challenge.
Be fucking strong and fake a smile everyday and lies that you're feeling okay/alright.
This post is regrading my feeling. You read it, You understand it.
Dont understand it, dont ask me.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
i dont wanna hurt you.
Friday, February 18, 2011
I'll be the straw you will be my berry (:
(*&&^@@%^#@
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
this feeling. Currently.O.O
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Oh well.^^
Friday, February 11, 2011
Welcome to MY life (:Ohh baby baby... La La La La La La.. :D
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Second day of work was okay.
Trained by kak Fadah. All her teaching really make things more easier to remember.
I still headache with the stupid walkie talkie, timing all. But I can get the hang of it ABIT UH.
Tomorrow is my last day of training, Thursday SOLO. damn damn damn. aku takoot !
Today end work at 6pm. phew! My legs are all sore. I really need a leg massage right now. BADLY.
Tomorrow work again. same timing. 1-6pm. But firstly I have to go to do my ezlink at AMK Inter. Gonna go out early uhh.
dont wanna be late for work. & I seriously need a watch. Being a runner selalu need to see time.
my eyes are really heavy. Heavy ttm. I guess imma off to bed. but first SMOKY SMOKE.
Ohh baby baby... La La La La La La.. :D
fuck you.
Monday, February 07, 2011
Hello.
Yeah, I know I've been MIA from my Blogger blog for too long.
I've been busy finding work, Graduation, my April intake course and the most stressful/problematic things that currently in my mind is relationship, family, money and friends.
Currently feeling down, moodless, pms-ing, tired and need someone to talk.
This days I got this kind stupid feeling of puking after eating.
I dont know whats wrong. Eating disorder? err. no.
Firstly, I got a job at Shangri-La Hotel at Sentosa. The job was "so-so" quiet easy. But there's some problem be hide it.
My so call second job is at Cathey Cinema at Woodlands. I know right. From Hougang to Woodlands. Damn fucking far. Thank god dad lives at Sembawang. Or other ways I'll ask dad to fetch me from work then sent me back home to Hougang riding his motorbike :D Later is my first day of work. Orientation + Training. Start at 10am to 7pm -.-"
Secondly, I finally graduating my Beauty Therapy Nitec course this month on the 16 Feb.
like yay! Bought my Heels. Mum lend her blazer. So I'll be wearing white top, black skirt, blazer and wedges :D Like finally meeting my awesome beauty babes. I miss them so-so-so much !
Thirdly, I was accepted by ITE in Retail course in April-intake this year at ITE WEST. damn damn damn far. So I have to sacrifices myself staying at dad place, I shall estimate my timetable and which day to stay Sembawang and which day to stay Hougang. pity much uh?
Like you can see. My life sucks.
Its getting harder and harder everyday.
I smile and act as if like I'm okay with every single thing in my life.
But deep inside, I feel like *&^$#%&* _l_ EVERY SINGLE DAY W/O FAIL.
Oh well, This is life. You cant escape from anything right?
About my "stressful/problematic problem" that I mention above.
I guess I'll update on my personal dairy of mine. A little privacy much.
KARAOKEEEEEEE !
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Monday.
A last minute plan by Ekka.
When to Sentosa cove. The place called Ficus point.
The place where only Sentosa stuff can enjoy karaoke-ing and playing pool or games.
Very nice place indeed. 4 star what do you except right. I very the "jakon" when I step in.
HAHA! really ! And I love their milo ! very nice. hehe!
Okay la. Going to bed. Later planing to meet Eka, Ct and Yan. Going woodlands meet Azhar.
Morning ! :D
